I Have A Lot of Growing Up To Do

If I think staying home on weekends cleaning the house + do laundry and waking up in the wee hours in the morning to prepare sahur is enough to fulfill my duty as a wife, I am clearly living in my own dream world. This entry is a follow up on yesterday's PMS = sulking entry. Last night I threw a tantrum in front of my husband. Here's the story.

Hubby has been busy for about 2 weeks now. He has been coming back very late and very tired. On top of that, it is fasting month AND he had food poisoning where he was experiencing diarrhea and stomach ache, resulting in him to frequent the toilet more often than usual. CLEARLY, he was very very tired. But this sweet loving husband of mine still insisted to come home to me every night although it is wayyy past mid-night and even when his family members (worried about his lack of sleep) try to persuade him to just stay over in Nilai and offered to send him home for sahur. That is notably very sweet of him.

In a parallel world, I have been wanting to watch Inception, Salt and The Sorcerer's Apprentice with him since the movies were launched but we were either too tired or too busy to catch any screening at the nearest cinema. Yesterday, while browsing through the screening time, I realised that Inception will soon be phased out from the cinema so I told hubby about it and he said he'll try to rush back and see if we can catch it.

He arrived home ard 10-ish and called me out. I went into his car and wonder where we were going. He said "I thought you wanted to watch Inception". I replied "Oh, this late? Next show is 11.45pm in Mid-Valley..." Thinking I have to wake up around 4.45am to prepare sahur, and the movie would probably end around 3am, I was not really up for it. But I am not fasting (as I am currently having my period) I could probably just take coffee to last me through the day. However, when I look at him, he was yawning constantly and looked very very tired. So I said, lets go buy DVD instead. He asked me thousands of times whether I am sure with my decision coz obviously the DVD won't be of good quality. All I know is I want to watch Inception and since he is home with me now, and came back just to spend time with me, might as well. So we went ahead and the drama begins.

I opened the lock to my house. There was a sliding door right after the grill but I went ahead and bang my whole body against it. Of course, it is funny but it was also painful. Hubby was laughing at me and I was waiting for him to rub the pain away. But he was taking his time. Open his car's door, one after another, Open it again, Check the boot... Still not done. What the hell was he looking for? So I yelled, "Cepat laaaa... sakit nih" and he was still laughing and said "Itu laa dulu gelakkan org".

Guess what I did. In pain and so mad that he was laughing at me instead of soothing me, I threw the lock on the ground!!! Hubby, with all the stuff in his hand, was not happy I did that and complained, "Jangan la macam nih. Baik tak payah balik awal." Urghhh... Benci. Mmg takyah balik awal kalau nak irritate orang. I stormed inside and waited in front of the front door. He didn't come in. After rubbing the pain away myself, I went back outside to check on him. Apparently, he dropped all his stuff on the ground too, head down on his new Triton. So I picked up his stuff, picked up the lock and the house key, tried to pushed him in but he would't budge. So I just went inside.

I went straight to the kitchen, washed my dirty dishes while crying and went straight to bed. Not in the mood to watch movie... All the while, he was smoking, sitting comfortably on the back of his new triton. Only after he had gain enough strength to deal with me, he came up and comforted me and asked me to watch movie with him downstairs. Melted that he at least still try to make that effort, I went for it, but after just 10 mins, he fell asleep on the couch beside me. Feeling sleepy myself, I woke him up and dragged him upstairs. Back to normality...

PMS Mode - Part 2

Okay. PMS got the better of me last night. Though instead of lashing out, I ended up sulking the whole night. Great...

PMS mode

At this very moment, I am fighting off a very strong urge to lash out at my husband although he didn't exactly do anything wrong.

Dream/Nightmare

I am the kind of person who dreams frequently, almost every night actually. Sometimes I remember exactly what happened in the dream. Sometimes I choose to not remember anything. I had a horrible dream last night. That being a nightmare, of course I do not want to remember the details but I do remember seeing blood bath scenes. I am just glad that when I woke up from the nightmare, hubby was already home. He erases all my worries and anxiety by just being there. He has been working very hard lately and coming home late... leaving me to go to sleep without him. Miss him already...

My All New PC

Hello, earthlings! Just got back from Mines with hubby and Ayet. Here's the result.
Desktop full spec minus CD ROM: 1,039.
20" LG Monitor: 388
Logitech keyboard: 30
AVF VGA to RCA Cable 1.8m for wii =D :30
Belkin 6 Way Surge Protection: 155
Extra 3% for using credit card
Total: RM 1,693

Huaaaaaaa. Wayyyyyyyy over budget. Reason being abg's old desktop is a little obsolete. Changing one part will require me changing another. A 256mb RAM? Who uses that anymore. Next is my ink catridge and table for the gadgets. Good night.

Welcome, Ramadhan =)

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan, everyone...

I have a few things that I plan to achieve this Ramadhan.

Lets see later whether I manage to meet the target or not.

Hehe.

Geek-y Weekend

Last Sunday was one of those running errands day. After getting back from Nilai and did my laundry, I went straight back to KL with Irna and Asserk to deal with mummy's BB stuff (separate line under Maxis, fill in form at Digi etc). The matter has not been settled yet due to some backlog and some misunderstanding on Maxis side... But I don't want to dwell on that.

On top of that, I was looking for a monitor for my soon-to-be-set-up PC. Surveying ard, I came across Samsung 21.5" monitor with HD resolution for RM583. Hubby went to Mines and found the same item for 550 which I think a good enough buy without me having to squeeze my way through PC fair at KL Convention Centre. Hubby also went looking at some other models but I insisted on the full HD resolution.

At the same time, abang's desktop, which I "kidnapped" last week was at the repair centre. The guy called me up saying that it was a hard disk problem. I asked how much would it cost me for them to replace the item for me and how many Gb will it be, and how much would it cost me if I just buy the hard disk elsewhere and get them to just install it for me? After I hang up the phone, I feel like such a geek dealing with all this stuff but truth is, I am no geek at all with the amount of knowledge I have on all these technical devices. Lucky Ayet (hubby's cousin) tells us that he can repair the desktop for us so I don't have to incur repair charges. I only have to belanje him makan... Fair enough =) So I took back the desktop from the shop without having to pay for anything (Thank God... I thought they would charge me for identifying the problem for me.)

That night, hubby and I went out with Ayet and Ayet got to use his geeky knowledge to (really) gain my attention. He explained all about the resolution stuff and told me I don't need a full HD for my monitor... Computer does not support that high of a reso (or I would have to change my graphic card, which I don't need since we won't be using it for serious kick-ass games). Even if I would like to connect my wii to it, console games, even more so wii, does not support Hi-Def reso. So I can just proceed buying a cheaper monitor version.

All in all, it was a geeky weekend but most of the things are still pending. Supposed to go Mines shopping all the stuff above with hubby and Ayet last Sunday but since all of us were too bz, we postponed it to next Sunday. Hopefully all the things above will be settled by next Sunday. One week is enough as a gadget geek. =p (perasan mode la kan)

August 2010 Budget

After I settled the over-the-top Pangkor Laut trip the other day, I am left with my normal monthly expenses, which is not that small actually but managable still. But on top of that, I took up or planning to take up a few more BIG commitments that are driving me crazy. I hope I will not run out of cash this month for my fooddddd especially with puasa month and Raya coming up.

1) PD trip for my whole family - 1,216 (mummy reimbursed me about half actually) (used to pay item 6 below)

2) CFA Level 2 (need to sign up before 22 September) - 2K+ will convert into installment plan under CIMB Mastercard

3) Buying mummy her new BB - 1,299 + 500 deposit (if I buy from Digi) = 1.8K (ongoing) done. Mummy dearest paid for her own RM500 deposit since I am quite short this month.

4) I need a working computer at home. My laptop died a few months back after serving me for a good 6 years... Hubby's netbook is too small to serve the purpose. If the connection gets too slow, it hangs easily. If I take abang's desktop at home, I still need to pay for repair... and I also need a working printer/scanner so total budget around 1K.

5) I can scrap this but what the heck. Put it here anyway, new TV that serves as wii TV AND monitor =p... not in budget

Taken abang's desktop, printer/scanner & keyboard and brought back my uni-days speaker+sub whoofer. Now need a decent monitor ard400-500, harddisk ard200 and putting aside some budget aside for repair cost, printer's ink catridge and hdmi cable (for wii maybe =p) ard100 = total ard800 RM1,693. Mummy dearest reimbursed 500.

6) Starting my ASB loan installment this month - additional 700+ monthly paid using item 1 above

7) My tyres need changing soon... ard 1K? will have to wait for now. maybe when my mileage reach 80K KM (10 KM to go) October budget

8) Accommodation to Penang and Brunei - 1K

HOW MUCH DO I THINK I EARN!!! Urghhh... managable now :)

If this is not enough, I bought tickets to Penang (October) and Brunei (January next year) during AirAsia promotion early this year. I haven't booked accommodation yet!

How much do I budget for this one? 1K?

9) And Raya???????? kuih raya? duit raya? ok kids.. duit raya cut this year =p

Thank you.

handbag

It's official. My handbag will only last around 6 months or so. After which, it will be soooooo used up that it will not be safe for use/in a working condition anymore =p Just changed to a new handbag mom-in-law bought for me during her trip to Europe... Uhh, thanks mak!!! I NEED new handbag. Old one right to the dustbin.

Outdated!

Gosh... I am SOOOOOOOO outdated! No wonder everyone has been changing their blog's layout. Ahaqs! =p Okay... This is gonna take awhile to adjust and getting used to.

Hubby's way of giving me money

I am known to be a VERY deep sleeper... If there's such a term. (More accurately in Malay is tido mati.) Last night, I was sleeping on the couch by hubby's side while he was watching TV when I suddenly felt suffocated and woke up... There hubby was pinching my nose with a RM50 note. When I came to my senses, I asked him what it is for... He answered, "Duit utk ayg". So I took it, put it in my pocket, wrapped my arms around him and went back to sleep. And then my nose got pinched AGAIN... "WHAT IS IT THIS TIME". "Duit utk ayg"... The process repeated for 4 TIMES!!! Unbelievable. Well, after the fourth one, I gave up trying to go back to sleep...

I looked at him, eyes wide open, and started asking real question like where he got that money from (it is not salary day) and what is the money for? (I am the finance manager for the whole household. Gotta know how much is for what.) After making sure he's not gonna pinch my nose again, and making sure how many pieces actually landed in my pocket (I have another stack of bills' money from mummy in the pocket), I try to go back to sleep... Only to be told, "Lets head upstairs now". Ish.

2 MIRACLES in a week!!!

After a sluggish phase last week, things are picking up a bit finally. It's only the second day into the week and I have already gotten two surprises... MIRACLES really.

1) I have been looking high and low for this close friend of mine from primary school to no avail. We lost contact when we were in form 1, 13 years of age that time. Out of a sudden, 13 years down the road, now at 26, HE himself looked up for me on the Facebook. Like wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... miracle!!!

2) I PASS MY FREAKING CFA LEVEL 1 PAPER!!! That alone is a HUGEEEEEE MIRACLE!

I am sooooooooooo HAPPY!!! Alhamdulillahhhhhh...

Okay, that's it for now. Hehe.

P/s: Level 2 study partners - Layen, Yat, Eu Jin, Hid, Ekmal and hopefully Carmen who is sitting for Lvl 1 in Dec.

Humbling Day

Dear diary,

Today was a humbling day... I feel like everything I did/said turned out wrong.

1) On some racial issue, found that I mis-quoted a friend and later turned out into this big debate over what was being said.... Lucky they have get used to me so the issue can be disregarded rather quickly.

2) Work - was confused on some issue and instead of going to my superior, I went straight to the client, where my superior pointed out reflects poor coordination in the team. =_=

3) Work - had to revise rate quoted to a client coz when I asked the dealer, she didn't answer so I asked the client what was the last rate quoted instead. And the rate sounds consistent with our board rate so I agreed to it. Turns out, they should get higher rate and the client was of couse, unhappy and her superior called back.

4) Feel bad for not staying over at my mom's place yesterday when she asked me to do so. The guilt drags on...

5) Coughing profusely. Should have taken Doctor's offer for MC today but refused based on the amount of work I currently have, which I now regret.

I hope it stops there. A bit too much for me to handle this especially in my current coughing condition.

Regards,
Farah

Pangkor Laut Resort pictures and ECLIPSE!

ECLIPSE Fever is definitely heating up since it's arrival in Malaysia yesterday! I would have to say, hmm, actually it doesn't quite meet my expectation coz my expectation was definitely sky high but nevertheless, I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Melted from all the loveeee it exudes. Just wished it could be longer to capture the feeeeeeel from the whole story. Oh... I promised to a friend to upload pictures from my latest vacation @ Pangkor Laut Resort on Facebook but was just too lazy to do anything on the computer at home (FB is blocked at the office). So here goes some of the pictures taken from our most recent vacation.

Look at us. Don't we make good lovely parents? LOL

That's it for now. I do need to do some restructuring with my labels later. Adios~

update: You know what... Hell with the labels. After going through SOME entries, I don't think I give a damn anymore whether the correct labels were being used or not. whatever~ haha

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

It's raining outside and I don't feel like going home yet as I'm sure the traffic will be congested. Plus hubby is still not done for the day. I would just like to record a VERY cheesy story so if you think you'll get sick of it, please stop reading. This morning I woke hubby up before I left for work since he wanted to leave early. Normally I would only give him a wake up call when I reached office. He was sitting on the bed, still half asleep when I hugged him from behind and asked, "sape yg comel sgt nih?". He then answered, "baby". I know I always call him baby though I don't think he approves it so it is a surprise to me when he admits that he is a baby, MY baby. Hehe... SAYANG SGT. Okay. YOU who are determined enough to read this entry even though I changed the font colour to black, please leave a comment. Let's have a headcount of those who actually managed to read this. LOL.

Love,

Farah

Half year into 2010

I want to update you guys on my very recent trip to Pangkor Laut Resort but pics are still with my brother so that will come a bit later... I guess. (If I am rajin enough to post them up here later, that is.) For now, I just feel like babbling. Somehow I suddenly feel obliged to update my blog coz I was sooo bored, resulting in blog-hopping addiction (as my source of entertainment) and was hoping that everyone would update their blog fast enough to keep up with my frequent visiting.

So where do I start... Pangkor Laut trip has been refreshing and as expected... fattening =D ngeeee.... Gosh, I REALLY need to watch my weight now. Speaking of which, since it is THAT time of the month when typically I would need choc to help calm me down/cheer me up, I was craving for a BAR of DARK CHOC and had been bugging hubby about it. Being the sweet hubby that he is, he went ALL the way to KLIA yesterday and bought me one. (The phone is being placed there for you to have an idea of how big the chocolate bar really is.)
And talking about sweet hubby, he bought me a bottle of perfume right after our Pangkor Laut trip. It was totally unexpected. We were walking around in KLCC while waiting for Lin Ali... went past Versace's booth, where the sales lady offered for a test spray, which I "politely" declined (a very quick "No, Thank you", smiled and quickly walked away without looking back). Hubby suddenly stopped me and asked "Perfume ayg dah nak habis kan?"

Me: Yeah. Why?

Him: Meh syg belikan

Me: Tak payah laa...

Him: Apsal pulak. Jom...

*Pushed me back towards the saleslady.* Grrr *&%$#@

Saleslady: Ha, tadi akak tanye ckp taknak....

Double grrrrr.

Well, being us, who don't like to shop much, we did the purchase in less than 10 minutes. (I didn't even get the chance to refuse this gift. Lucky I actually like the smell of it afterwards. =p)

Here you go: Versus by Versace. (You can actually see in the picture, my old perfume. Still quite a lot. Haha.)

And lastly, checked my cimbclicks just now and am so happy to see both loans I have taken (refer post Investment and Investment - Part 2) are now being displayed on my screen... FINALLY! (where can you find a girl that is so excited to see she has more debt now =p wait a minute. I'm no longer a girl. Haha.) So I guess this will drag me into deficit again... until things get sorted out. Hope not for long (fingers crossed).

Oh. 1 more thing. Thinking of going to the dentist to take out one of my wisdom teeth tomorrow. It has been bugging me for quite some time since it came out sideway and has been biting the inside of my cheek, which is annoying. It is also making my lower gum to swell sometimes so better get this one sorted out... Pray I actually have the guts to go do it tomorrow as I might chicken out and delay the procedure AGAIN. heh.

Kids understand

We are currently on the way to Pangkor Laut, following behind parents-in-law's car. When we stopped at a petrol station for a refill just now, hubby went to take his niece and carried her to the newspaper stand. Just before returning her back to her grandparents, hubby complained how heavy her niece is. When hubby handed her over to his mom, she suddenly said:
Sorry Uncle Boy, Qys berat.
Hubby was immediately speechless and left felling a little guilty.
LOL!

Patriotism

Happy Thursday, everyone.

I went to abang's awards day at KYUEM last Saturday. This day marks his last day there as a student so now we can only sit and wait for the result. Guest of honour on that day was Tan Sri Zarinah Anwar, Chairman of Securities Commission, who gave a very enlightening speech about self development, independence and success. She was saying how refreshing it is not to have to talk about regulation, capital markets in Malaysia etc. and talked about her experience in school instead. She told us how her teacher had encouraged her students to be independant, like when the school didn't have enough funds to build a hall, they did a number of fund-raising events to achieve their target. Later, they wanted to have their own school band so they needed fund for their uniforms and equipments. Again, instead of asking for money from whoever and waiting, they actually took matter in their own hands and work for it, which I find very inspiring. They even won the state level that year. I have heard some ppl TRYING to go into business and blaming relatives for not providing them funds "like the chinese". WTF? I'm sure although some Chinese are lucky enough to get funding from their parents to start off their own business, most of them actually work for it themselves. So STOP BLAMING and START WORKING.

She later went on to touch on the working environment, where she said although there is no doubt your qualification is important to get you in, it is how you perform at work later that would actually get you to the next level. This is exactly the issue I have been facing lately. I know my result got me somewhere but it is a constant struggle to keep on improving at work, where all that KPIs matter. I need to go keep on moving. I can't stay constant or I will be left behind. Howww do I do that???

After the event in the hall is over, we went to the dining hall for lunch where I get to sit and talk with one of my own teachers. He was commenting about interviews and find it bullshit when people say "I want to serve the country" during interviews. What the hell is wrong with that? Honestly, as cheesy as it may sound, I DO feel that way. I DO feel like I owe it to my country to work and contribute back to the society given the amount of money they spent on me for my education. I DO feel like I owe it to myself to make use of some knowledge/skills/experience I acquired for the amount of time I put in during my studies. I'm sure it is not much as compared to other ppl I know... but there was still some effort on my side to at least pass my papers. And although the contribution of ONE small person like me may not actually affect the nation's economy as a whole, combine the small small me and you will get like what, more than half of the nation's total working force? (The rest being the high achievers that DO contribute a whole lot to the country's economy and development.) Anyway, as small as the contribution of one person may be, it is still important to the economy, especially when we later aggregate it to make up for the country's total production, ie GDP. Imagine ONE cleaner refuses to work and his decision affected his colleagues and they also decided not to work, can you imagine the effect it will have on our GDP. Not only will the state be left dirty, there will be less velocity in the market as less people have money to spend, thus other people will get less income from say groceries sales, petrol, bus fare, food stalls etc. So in short, don't underestimate one person's contribution. Also don't look down on one person's motivation to contribute to his/her country. It is NOT bullshit.

In case any of my friends working overseas reading this, you guys still contribute to the country in a number of ways. 1) money sent home 2) Malaysia's reputation to the rest of the world. You guys are the country's small ambassadors. hehe. Proud of you guys, being over there, competing with other world class people. =)

Okay, I'm patriotic. Just shut up now. =p

Toilet seat

Since I'm bored, lets do 2 updates today =p

As some of you might have known, hubby has started venturing out from his agricultural business to construction. Not as big scale as his farming business just yet but he has started on helping with building kitchen and toilet for other farmer and recently tiling aunt's house. I sometimes followed him to the sites and I must admit, it is kinda man-ly work. I mean I don't want to get my hands and shoes dirty doing all that, even if I could muster enough strengh to lift anything. But at home, it seems like a different story.

The toilet seat got detached a few days ago and I found it on the bathroom floor.

When hubby saw me in the toilet picking that thing up, he just said "Dah tercabut dah, ayg."

I picked it up, put it back in place, fasten the lock, looked at him and replied "You did all that construction work but you could not get the toilet seat back to its place?"

He just looked back at me grinning with that cheeky, naughty smile....

Sigh

Exam

Hi peeps,

Exam is finally over. (Thank God) I can finally breathe. BUT not with peace.

It was a disaster... again. Here comes the IF ONLY I spent more time studying and doing exercise, it could have been better.

How the hell do ppl study while working, being married and have kids all at the same time.

I just don't have enough motivation to push myself towards this goal.

Perhaps nothing is at stake... that's why I lack the motivation & discipline.

Urgh, I envy+admire my friends who are doing well at what they do...

Am definitely proud of them... But when will I get there?

It feels like I have lost my direction now.

I want to feel good about myself again, have a sense of achievement but it's nowhere in sight at this very particular moment. Lucky I have a hubby to go back to everyday. At least, that is something that I look forward to at the end of a tiring, directionless day.