I DON'T WANNA REPEAT MY 1ST YEAR!

Yesterday, i was thinking: I dun wanna repeat any of my 1st year paper & hope to get good grades for the other 3. Today, after completing 3 papers, which i didn't complete anyway, i just hope that i don't hafta repeat the whole year again. Suddenly, repeating 1 paper is not so bad after all. Yeah, i have no one else to blame but myself. I'm sorry to everyone that's affected by my performance. My mom, Hazmi dear, JPA, my bro and some of my friends that put very high hopes on me. I'M REALLY SORRY. I screwed my 1st year. I admit that. Still hoping that i dun hafta repeat any paper at all, i promise myself that i will work hard next year onwards. I'm typing this down here so that NEXT YEAR, i will definitely remember this unpleasant experience of my life as student.
AAAAhhhh, my head feels like exploding. Not becoz of too much information, but bcoz of too much pressure. Lalala, mirror, mirror on the wall, who's the laziest of them all... YOU ARE, FarahHaida. And now u deserve this. The stupidiest of them all. Huwaa...

Arghh, i hate exams.....

Do i need to say more?

"you feeling sad, you're feeling lonely
but no one seems to care,
your mother's gone and your father hates you,
this pain you cannot bear"

Ok, that is just the lyrics. My mom's not gone. And i dun think my dad hates me...

What kind of person am i?

Certainly a lazy one. hehe. Just finished my 1st paper today. I would say, "Not good". Isk, sad news, huh? Despite being in the middle of exam period, i'm not posting anything exam related. Something else caught my attention. Anyone close to me would actually notice, anytime nearing exam period, i would always say i want to get married. (A very lame excuse for my refusal to study) Lately though, i've been saying that so frequently like chanting a mantra or something even during non-exam periods. (Must hate studying that much. hehe) Talked to my mum just now. She told me that, ppl (my relatives, i'm guessing) once thought that i would be a stubborn young lady who refuses to get married early, which is a complete different picture of what's happening now. Must be surprising, a girl who refused to have a boyfriend when she was growing up, met a guy, fell in love for the 1st time and settling down so quickly. And i thought it's normal... ??? Maybe they are just comparing me now with me back then, when i was a stubborn girl who fiercely sent all guys away. So, back to the question, what kind of person am i? NOT the stubborn young lady who refuses to get married early.
haha. [posting this to push down the "sad" picture of me. =p]
p/s: eh, i am NOT getting married yet. That's not what i meant by settling down. Not in the nearest 2 3 years at least. Hope u won't get the wrong impression, heh

Hazmi's departure

hey, all! The precious 20 days is now officially over. Hazmi boarded the MH 0003 at 12 o'clock local time and arrive in Malaysia around 7am Malaysia time. What can i say? i really had a great time when he was here. Was never lonely, always had company, sometimes get into silly fights, being crazily childish, had some1 to make sure i eat my meals, watch movies together. Ok. i'm not in the mood to type anything write now. Even the weather is much colder today. Not fair, gets colder when Hazmi's not here. :( u can see for yourself my current condition

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Happy mode.........................................................................Sad mode...................

Paris Trip Reunion

It hasn't been that long since our Paris trip but we had our reunion already. hehe. (Following the Malam Bakti cast members step, i guess. Jk) It is not supposed to be one though. Had been planning to go to My Old Dutch since Mimi went to eat Pancakes there with the cast members. Asked Mimi, Dina, Siewch & Aida when should we go. Turns out, Dina & Siewch wanted to go after exam. Must be studying hard ;) Since i wanted to take Hazmi there, i need to go this week. Mimi doesn't mind going there twice. Aida said, call her at that time, if she's awake, she'll come along. So i did. Even invited Mikel at the very last minute coz his nick that time was 'lapar, lapar.' But in the end, there was only the 4 of us, again. There u go. We even took pictures of our group badges/pins that we bought in Disneyland. Yeah! Our Paris trip rawks...
p/s: Sorry Dina. If i had known that u wanted to come along, i'd have invited u at the last minute as well. The more the merrier. We'll go together next time after exam kays...

Ring and bracelet

Hey guys... It's been awhile since i updated my blog. I've been, u know, bz bz bz. Cherishing every second of Hazmi's presence here. The thought of him going back this Sunday is very2 depressing but i really hafta start studying hard instead of wasting my time mourning. Before i know it, it's time to go back again to Malaysia. Home Sweet Home~
Hehe, this is a pic of our gift for each other. I (at last) managed to bought him a ring (wanted to buy him one for sooo long). It is a two-pieced puzzle ring. Some ppl, including him, suggested that i take one of the pieces and he keeps the other one. I refuse to coz it's too big for me to wear it. My argument is, if he wears them together at the same time, our love is always complete. Anyway, he bought me a beautiful bracelet with two heart-shaped-diamonds dangling from it, from M&S ;) hehe. Thanx sweetheart!