Reborn

It has been so long since I last posted something here. Today, I am a whole new person since that last post. The same yet different. I am back where I started, back in KL, single (technically, divorced) but with kids. Redirecting my life to where I always wanted it to be, more academic and more religious, hopefully. People has been asking whether I am looking, whether I want to be remarried. I am and I do but it's not easy to find "the one" in this day and age. A relative of mine once commented, "you need to find someone of status, berkedudukan in her words". I laughed at it and said... the problem is these people don't want me. The truth is... what I am looking for in a man is someone who is more religious than me. I want someone who fears God more than me. I want someone who loves The Messenger more than me. Someone who is more knowledgeable than me religiously and not only has the knowledge, also practices it wholeheartedly. Not someone who has more money, more status or is more handsome/beautiful.

But when I think about it, if I ever say it out loud like I'm saying it now, will people say that I am so stuck up, perasan bagus, or rasa hebat sgt? Alaa, yg penting hati. Solat tonggang tonggeng 5 waktu pon belum tentu Allah terima solat tu kan. Perhaps. I can't guarantee my amalan diterima or good enough but I want someone who can make me a better person, in and out. In - niat dan hati. Out - character. I don't want someone who would be with me for what I look right now. I am not beautiful and it has never been the quality I offer to anyone. Take me as I am. I am not into beauty so much. So you can't leave me because I don't dress right, or don't put on any make up or because I grow fatter.

I also need a man who can stand up for me and also against me when I am wrong. I admit I am a strong figure. I am an alpha female. But I need a man who is stronger, who has authority over me, who I can totally respect, who is strong enough to correct me when I am wrong but also strong enough to listen to me when I correct him, who won't feel emasculated. 

All these said... I hope this man has an ambition to build a successful, religious family with me. Someone who will not walk away from me when his love for me faded but will be contented with me and the family. Someone who could treat my kids as his own and would respect my relationship with the father of my children and his family.

I guess that's a lot to ask for in a man but I will have to keep searching. If I don't find this person, I guess I am contented to stay single my whole life. Or perhaps too early for me to make this kind of comment, I don't know. Just go with the flow.

 

Pink - Who Knew

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

KATY PERRY - The One That Got Away

Summer after high school when we first met
We'd make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th Birthday
We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor
And climb to the roof
Talk about our future
Like we had a clue
Never planned that one day
I'd be losing you

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other, we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you
I put those records on (Whoa)

Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the Blues
It's time to face the music
I'm no longer your muse

But in another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]
The one that got away

[Bridge:]
All this money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)
Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)
I should've told you what you meant to me (Whoa)
'Cause now I pay the price

In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
The o-o-o-o-o-one [x3]

In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away

Kelly Clarkson - What doesn't kill you (Stronger)

You know the bed feels warmer
Sleeping here alone
You know I dream in colour
And do the things I want

You think you got the best of me
Think you've had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone
Think you left me broken down
Think that I'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

You heard that I was starting over with someone new
They told you I was moving on over you

You didn't think that I'd come back
I'd come back swinging
You try to break me, but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken-hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking about me
You know in the end the day you left was just my beginning
In the end...

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone

[2x]
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone

(When I'm alone)

Christina Perri - Human

Christina Perri - Human

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
'Til I've had enough

'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

Eat on time.

Of all the things I learn at 30 years old, it shocked me that this is one of them. Eat properly. Yesterday, I spent the whole day alone with the 2 kids. By 9pm, I was already so cranky. I was thinking maybe I'm not built for this. Maybe I'm just a lousy mom, who can't handle taking care of her own kids full day alone. It even crossed my mind that at times like these, I sometimes regretted having 2 children close apart because it is just too much for me to handle them by myself. Little that I know that the solution was so simple.

Last weekend, hubby pointed out that our youngest daughter is exactly like me, even to the point that she is cranky when she is hungry. Well, who isn't, right? But my hubby said I am EXTREMELY cranky when I'm hungry. So last night was just a prove how right he was. My last meal was at 12pm. At 7pm, I was already hungry so I cooked some rice. But busy handling the kids, I put off eating until way after 10pm. And by then, I was as scary as a cookie monster. I even refused to talked to my husband when he called me that night! (which is very rare because I always LOVE talking to my sunshine.) After grumbling to my friends, one of the moms in that group pointed out, never skip your meal as it will make you grumpy and that would affect your mood and how you handle your children too. So screw "diet". I ate at 10pm, then wallahhhh... my mood improved immediately. By right, if I had eaten on time, it would be a healthy diet as it would give time for the food to digest before I went to bed. Lesson learned.

And my conclusion from this lesson? Hubby knows me better than I know myself. Wahahaha.

Our evening cycle/walk/stroll

02022014 - Escape Room round 2

This weekend is a long weekend due to Chinese New Year holiday and Federal Territory day. So we are off Friday to Monday. We spent our Friday cleaning up the house and went shopping for the new arrival on Saturday.
On Sunday, my friends and I made a date for our second (first for most of them) trip to the Escape Room at E@curve. There were 7 of us and we went to Prison Break room this time and surprise, surprise... We managed to escape in 36 minutes!!! Woohoo. See. I told you. Headcount is important and teamwork gave us success. There was me, Hudam and Cyan as the recurring contestants and Asserk, Aizat, Lisak and Shasha Id as first timers. Asserk broke the 1st clue. Hudam unlock us out our hand-cuffed. Was supposed to break a clue on a box and then a pouch. But Shasha managed to unlock the pouch without solving any clue. Cheating a bit there but what the heck. We didn't break anything. What comes next was a bit tougher. A physical challenge, which Lisak successfully completed for us. I unlocked the 4th padlock, giving us access to the next clue, which the team solved together to unlock the next one. And the final one, was again a team effort. Don't think we would have made it with fewer headcount. *I hope this doesn't qualify as a spoiler*. Sorry orn. I knew you would love to join but Sunday is the day with the most people so we had to go with the majority. A few people asked whether it was fun. It definitely WAS. Of course, you have to go with great company but the game was what made it fun, right?

Before:

After:

Since we were all so very happy after the win, we went to celebrate at DipNDip. I didn't know they have a branch there. Luckily someone pointed it out.

Fettucini crepe. The only dish I managed to capture a picture of.

While I was away with friends, mom and brother helped to look after Tricia who was having a blast at Yukids Island. She was there since 2pm until I went to pick her up at 4.30pm. Guess that was quite convenient eh?

My husband's story was kinda funny. He thought he was supposed to attend a kenduri that day, which was why I picked Sunday to spend time with my friends. He woke up late, left the house, then only realized the kenduri was the day before. So he drove to KL and joined us in The Curve. After that, had a drink at Bubba Gump Shrimp before sending mom and bro back home. A happy day indeed.

Happy new year, 2014

Am I too late to wish all of you a Happy New Year? I guess I am. Haha. We went on a quick holiday near year-end but Tricia was having fever for a week around new year, which has kept me awake most nights and left me tired after the nightmare was over. So no time to blog. It was a nightmare not because the fever was severe. It just won't go away. Whenever we gave her meds, the fever would disappear for 6 hours or so until the meds effect worn off. Went to take her blood and Dr Oo confirmed there was viral&bacteria infection in her blood but what worry my mom was her hemoglobin level was very low at 8. Mom worries it might be iron deficiency anemia/G6PD/minor thalessemia. We will let her body recover whatever supply for now but we will have to revisit that issue later.

I still owe myself lots and lots of vacation update but I guess that will just have to wait. My dearest colleague, Soke Yee, got married recently and although she wanted to keep her marriage leave for later, I told her to take it now because she will only be going for her honeymoon after I got back from maternity leave. By then, her marriage leave would have expired already. Hence I'm quite busy at work now.

Towards new year, I heard one topic in the radio talking about worst memories in 2013. My initial thought was none. Then I remembered. My dearest father passed away in 2013. It may not leave as big an impact on me as it would on his other family members, but I felt the loss nevertheless. Sometimes I felt like calling him but he is no longer around. So I will just divert my attention to focus on the arrival of our new family member soon.

Hmm, that's all for now. Wanted to update on our most recent trip to Tasik Kenyir but too lazy to start digging the pictures. Hehe. Later then. Going on another trip this Friday to Tanjung Jara Resort. Woohoo!!!

Tired but fulfilling weekend of BWM, BBW and EscapeRoom

Hello peeps. First day back at work after a 3-day weekend and I'm feeling extremely tired today. Took Monday off to rest and re-energised but it was exactly the opposite of what really happened.

Friday night

Hubby and brothers went for badminton session from 12-3am. I was SO sleepy already so I told hubby I'll just wait for him at home in Nilai. But when my little girl, who is nocturnal, looked at me and said let's go... I relented. After all, no work on Satuday. So I went and kept chasing her around until 1.30am or so when finally I couldn't take it anymore and fell asleep on the chair... in a sitting position. Went back home with Kak Azah around 2am and this happened:

Qys: Mummy, kenapa perut auntie Farah gemuk?

Kak Azah: Sebab auntie Farah mengandung.

Qys: Owh, auntie Farah makan byk sgt sebab tu laa mengandung.

Adesss... I ate too much and that's how I got pregnant. But what I LOVE about this conversation the most is the innocence in that statement. Kids are way TOO advanced nowadays... with rape/sexual assault commited by children as young as 7 years old, it is just worrying. So it is extremely nice to hear such an innocent statement like that coming from a kid.

Saturday

Woke up "early" around 9.30 or so to pick up our new baby. Arrived at the centre around 12 but only managed to leave the place around 1.30pm. That was only after I stormed out the office because we had been waiting way too long than I could tolerate. We already called one day earlier to say we were going to pay via credit card and when we arrived that day, they told us the machine broke down. Only when I stormed out he suggested to pay at another branch's office. Pfffttt. They love to test the patience of a pregnant woman, huh?

From Puchong to Cyberjaya to Nilai to Bangi to Setapak to Ampang to Setapak to Bangi to Nilai. Cost us RM90 petrol. Is that expensive? I can't tell... Went to Tamarind Springs in Ampang that night to have dinner with mummy and abang. It was a beautiful, BEAUTIFUL place but 4 plates of rice, 4 king prawns, 2 bowls of tomyam and 1 plate of fish cost us RM400! Damn expensive T_T. Went back to Nilai and had durian fiesta before calling it a night.

Sunday

No plan on Sunday. We just wanted to sleep in. Was supposed to call someone to clean the house but the woman didn't call back. Anyway, I asked my friend Uda to go to the Big Bad Wolf expo with me and we managed to arrive there at 8am. Here's my catch for the day. 15 books for RM111.15 after 5% discount with OCBC card.

Was a lazy day the rest of the day where we hang out in Nilai to pass the time and spend time with family.

Monday
Woke up in Nilai because we were going to Seremban to take Tricia's 2-year-old jab. It was for Hep A, first dose and an optional one. Had breakfast first cooked by my lovely MIL. Got no 15 and had to wait for 1 1/2 hours. Then, I rushed back and picked up Irna for our date with Cyan and Hudam for our escaperoom session. I called to ask which room was suitable for pregnant woman, and the guy who answered suggested we tried Mummy or Prison room. Since mummy's difficulty was lower than prison, we chose that one for this round. It was our first time and the experience was awesome although we didn't manage to crack the code for the last puzzle on time. We were given 45 minutes and we could ask for clue two times within the time limit, which we did use. Would definitely go again to try other rooms. More info at escaperoom Before I went, I was looking for cheatsheet or spoilers online. Lucky I couldn't find any as it will definitely kill the fun! So yeah, I am not going to be the fun buster and post any spoiler.

After that, we went back to Cyan's place in Damansara Damai for our cake and cupcake session. Went back, picked up Tricia and did a bit of cleaning that I could manage and woke up today feeling extremely tired. But all-in-all, I had a fulfilling weekend.

my girl on a date with her papa while I was away with friends

Decluttering Phase

So many things happening in my life now that requires me to declutter all my stuff.

 

Work

We are moving to our new building Menara CIMB in KL Sentral end of this week so we have to finish packing soon.

 

House

Toilet renovation almost done. I am SO looking forward for it to be complete. Then I need to slowly declutter my house in anticipation of the new arrival and start making over Tricia's room for the confinement lady to stay in.

 

Car

Hubby bought a new car, which we will receive sometime this month. Hence, I need to start clearing up stuff from my Inspira as we need to send it to be made up pretty soon. It's up for sale anyway. So if anyone here interested (which I doubt any of my reader would be), do let me know. I'm letting it go at around RM50K.

Laundry funny story

Came back from our weekend getaway in Melaka last night. Since Tricia was restless and hungry for milk, I rushed back home before I managed to pick up the laundry from the shop. Hubby, who was on his way back, offered to pick the laundry up for me. He came home with a plastic bag full our clean clothes and... someone else's ironed clothes. I called him to bring the shirts to me, inspected them and saw that they were clearly not ours. I asked hubby, "can't you see they're not your shirts". Hahaha. Men...

Lucky the laundry shop was still opened and we managed to get our clothes back. Since we didn't lose our shirts, I think the incident was really funny. Hahahaha.

Salam Ramadhan

It has been more than a month since I last blogged. Guess I was too busy catching up with life after a crazy first half of the year. Resting, planning on renovation and vacations, reading: done reading The Hunger Games 2: Catching Fire and now on to the next one Mockingjay, attended training courses for my CPE points, completed 3 photobooks and spending time with family and friends. Managed to squeezed in a one-night getaway last weekend at Legend, Cherating with hubby and Tricia but that should have a separate entry on its own. Don't know whether I would really do it or not, though. Maybe I will since I have more time on my hands now that it is Ramadhan.

A lot of things I should have recorded on this blog especially on Batrisyia's progress but I've been too busy enjoying it in the moment that I forgot what to type about. She can say more words now. Although she has yet to string a sentence, she can say what's on her mind with her limited but expanding vocabulary. Sakit, panas, taknak, bye, mmmuahhh, flying kiss, basuh, yak, okay.

Recently she kept complaining that her private part being "sakit". She used the word sakit for both pain and itchiness. Either way, my mom and I got worried when she complained her private part is in pain. Checked her pampers and we couldn't see anything noticeable. So I concluded it might be itchy. I remember when I was 4 or so, I had to see a Dr for pain in the same area because I didn't wash up properly after I peed. Mom advised me to wash with salt water believing it to be able to kill bacteria. After we dried her up, we could see the "lips"gone red. *Panicked* I believe it was the pampers that cause it... for not changing up often enough. I must admit we took for granted the fact that her skin is stronger and not too sensitive now that we don't change her pampers unless it is really full or bathtime. And she seems to understand that the pampers is the cause for her pain because whenever we forgot to change her pampers after 4 hours or before she goes to bed, she will remind us. (I promised her 4 hours but it was damn amazing that she understood what I said and tell time! Well, it surely must be coincidence but still amazing =p)

She had broken the record by talking on the phone for the first time last month. Normally when my FIL called me to talk to her, she would only listen but would not say a word. But last month she did. And has been able to talk on the phone with people ever since. Once, she was crying because she didn't want to go to sleep yet and I was so tired. I dialled her father on the phone and she cried to her papa until papa had to tell her that he was on the way home to her as fast as he could.

Ramadhan starts today. I had to pick up Tricia from Nilai yesterday so thought I will have to terawikh alone at home. However, hubby agreed to be my imam for Isya' and terawikh prayers last night although we only started praying around 1am. Happy. Hehe. Tricia was left to play alone while we performed our prayers. Sahur today was rice, fried omelette (forgot to put in onions although I have cut them), broccoli and mini corn in oyster sauce and heated up MIL's ikan patin masak tempoyak, which was a failure. The fish was too soft that it breaks and since it was not fresh (heated up from frozen state), it doesn't taste as nice as it was. Hope hubby won't have bad memories of ikan patin masak tempoyak because of that. Thinking what should I cook for sahur tomorrow.

Have a blessed Ramadhan to all muslims out there!

Post Exam Evaluation

Hey peeps. This the 5th time I went (6th time paying) for a CFA exam. And by far is the MOST challenging one of the lot. I'm not referring to the difficulty of the paper but to the things that happened to me prior to the exam.

1) As you know, my dad passed away a month ago, halfway through a revision class I paid for. I had to skip one day from the 3-day course, which means I missed out on two very important topics: Financial Reporting Analysis and Corporate Finance.

2) It took me about a week or so to recover from the mourning phase and then my stepmom brought up about the asset issue. She told me sad stories about how my dad was short on cash bla bla bla... I fell for it and felt really sad that he never told me all about this money issue. I even told my stepmom to give me her account number if things get too tight for them later. I went back and cannot stop thinking about it and it made me so miserable. Until I kidnap my mom and told her everything that was on my mind. That was the best decision ever because moms are the BEST. She helped me see through things and think more rationally. It was such an eye opener. Whatever hardship they think they are going through now, we have been through worse. Yes, mom was right. Actually my dad managed his assets well. He left behind 3 properties and minimal debt. Maybe not a lot of cash as one would hope, but I assure you, it is enough to last them a few YEARS if they manage it well. Here I am, trying to make ends meet while raising a young family. I have debts here and there. Why do I need to worry about them when I actually need to worry about myself more!!! On top of that, she told me she won't ask my uncle about the piece of land my dad shared with his brother. But a week later, she asked me to go back to Perlis with her to talk to my uncle about the land. Urghhh... Cakap tak serupa bikin. I didn't ask for my portion of the assets my dad left. Why do you need the land so bad. When people say you are materialistic, you denied but here you are clearly showing your character. Hide it a bit la. Very ugly la. I did say I will file the necessary papers for the land but now when I see how desperate she wants it, I'm going to leave it as it is. Everyone can go fly kite. I don't care about it anymore.

3) My blackberry broke down last week. The screen just went blank. Fine. I don't need it anyway since I use it only to BBM people. Wednesday, I broke my baby's Samsung Galaxy Tab. It was beyond repair. And I panicked because she has grown attached to that toy of hers. So Thursday I went to Endah Parade with hubby to buy her a new cheap tablet, brand: Ainol. Never heard the name before but was supposed to be good for cheap tablets range. Today, that screen went blank. Adeihhh...

4) I got conjunctivitis a week before exam and it took so long to recover that I had to go to exam with red-eyes. It means limited eye activities during the whole week when I was supposed to be studying!

5) Last but not least, last night around mid-night, Tricia was sitting at my study table "writing" on my notes. Hubby was making his signature drink in the kitchen. I walked 7 feet away from her to watch The Karate Kid that was on TV. 30 seconds later, out of nowhere, Tricia started crying so loud. We were so worried because we didn't know what happened to her. I checked all my stationery: pens, eraser, pencil lead, pen caps... everything was intact. So she did not swallow anything. We checked her mouth.. every inch of it... her throat... her pampers... her legs...  nothing... no cut, no blood, no mark... but she still didn't stop crying. I let her go a few times... Hoping that she would point out which part was painful as she can now say "sakit".  We kept asking her to show it to us but she just continued crying. Hubby suggested taking her out for a drive. To our disappointment, the crying did not stop. Hubby suggested going for an X-ray just to be sure she didn't swallow anything. At that point of time, I was up for anything. I just couldn't bear looking at her suffering like that. But on the way to the hospital, hubby finally said it... Maybe she "saw" something. Well, maybe... Who knows. So hubby put on Yasin and like magic, the crying stop. She finally drank her milk and went to sleep. That was such a relieve. But it was 1am. Whatever energy, enthusiasm I had for the exam before had evaporated. Vanished. It was just too much to bear in such a short span of time.

The exam I think was quite a disaster for me. If it was one of my uni papers, I am quite confident I would have passed it, not with flying colours, of course, but a pass is very possible. But this is the CFA exam we are talking about, where 144K of people are sitting for it worldwide and only about 30% or so pass the respective levels. So irregardless whether I score 40% or 60%, I have more chances of failing that not. Whatever. I told myself this before I sat for the exam: With the amount of things I had to go through before the exam, I forgive myself if I fail the paper. We'll just try again if we feel like it. If not, let's just forget it. I just don't have that energy anymore. At least, not now.

From work and weight to house renovation and vacuum cleaner

Work has not been slowing down as I expected. Just as I thought we have some extra time on our hands, it kept piling up again, with more new special projects coming up. It is becoming a norm to HAVE TO work on weekends. This is tiring especially when I have a major exam coming up in June and I have yet to study. =.= Signed up for a revision class in Sunway though next weekend. Hope to be able to cover the syllabus one round before I attend the revision class (which at this rate, is impossible). Paid RM720 for 3 days revision class and one mock exam. Hope it pays off.

All this stress is taking a toll on me and I don't know whether this is a good thing or not. Yesterday, after lunch I felt dizzy and little out of breathe. My initial thought was, am I having high blood pressure. When CY (colleague/friend/TCB batchmate) came in, he said maybe I was just tired. That is probably true as I have been sleeping late the whole week. I have even lost weight. 3-4 months gym workout could not give me this result. I am at my wedding weight now? I thought it was impossible to achieve. I still feel flabby though... looking at my fats protruding from every angle of my body. If this goes on, I might be able to achieve my ideal weight of 52kg after all.

Was it 3 weeks ago... I came home late from work on a Friday night and found out hubby took a room at Equatorial Bangi. The hotel was not bad at all. But I wasn't so thrilled because again, I had to work that Saturday so only went there to sleep. Hubby and Tricia got to enjoy themselves in the bathtub and had breakfast at the hotel. He later told me that the reason he needed to check into a hotel so much was because he smelled like cow dung after delivering cows during the day. So it got me thinking, why don't we buy a jacuzzi? As usual, when I got excited about something, I will keep talking about it and my colleague/friend/gym partner Soke Yee suggested that I go to perfect living expo in PWTC that coming weekend. Maybe I can get a good offer as the jacuzzi I was looking for apparently costs around RM10K. So 2 weeks ago, we went to PWTC for the expo. Initially found a 2-person jacuzzi for RM11K and it was not even that nice. Continued walking until the first hall and found this at a much lower price, 35% cheaper than the first one! Put in 30% deposit for it. There are a lot more choices, nicer ones but at a slightly higher price but I am opting for the cheapest one I can find first as we have many other things to think about. Maybe then if we have extra cash, we could change to those with see-through glass design. 

Our next problem is renovating the toilet. We know our toilets can't fit in this huge jacuzzi. It is a 5' x 5'. I wanted to renovate the toilet in our master bedroom upstairs because it will be in our room. But the renovation cost is going to cost a bomb. Extending our toilet downstairs make sense because we only need to do minimal renovation to extend it to our backyard and hubby was all excited to put it downstairs as we are practically living downstairs anyway. After a long thought, I told hubby, we might as well make a new master bedroom downstairs. It is going to be easier for me to when the next baby comes around. I can serve my confinement period downstairs without having to go up and down the stairs for water/TV/internet. The design has been giving me headache. We are going to get hubby's cousin Dira, who is an interior design student to design it for us. But first I need to know what I want, right? And I want to take down our 8-feet-cupboard downstairs with us. (This design was sightly altered by Soke Yee from my initial design.) I prefer Option 1 as it makes the room looks bigger and spacious but am still open to suggestions. We have not asked for an estimated renovation cost yet and I am just praying that we could afford it. All travel plans (other than the UK one for abang's graduation) has been cancelled.

One final purchase I am looking for now is a good water-based vacuum. One rainbow vacuum salesperson came to our house the other day. I wasn't even interested to listen because I knew the product already. I don't deny that it is a very good product and I want it very much but the price is just ridiculous. RM8K for a vacuum? That's a bit too much. Surveyed online and found people selling a 3-year one on mudah.my for less than half the price. I excitedly called my husband to tell him about it but he said he is tight on cash now so hold that thought. With sad heart, I let go. But last week, Soke Yee was also looking for a good vacuum. And we agreed that rainbow is a very good one. So we decided to call the seller. Funny thing is, when I told this person my name is Farah, she was confused because she said I sound like a chinese. Yes, my English now has a Chinese accent to it after more than a year working in this department. (Okay, that is definitely not a good thing.) Moving on, she told me that a lot of people are looking to buy so we must hurry if we want it. Soke Yee said she will think about it. After much thought and after telling her mom (she got scolded by her mom for wanting to buy a RM3K second-hand vacuum), we decided not to pursue it. She then threw me some other good vacuum names. And I think Dyson is a good alternative at only quarter the cost of a rainbow. Maybe later today or tomorrow, we can go around looking for one.

That's it for now. So many stories cramp up into one post while I have the time to blog about it. Now I am going to spend the little time I have with my babies until I have to go to work later in the afternoon. Until next time, peeps.

Thinking too much?

Hubby watched Lawak Ke Der 2 and quoted one of Harith Iskandar's joke about how a germ would get trapped in a woman's brain but will hear echo in a man's brain. Point being how women always over-think stuff. In I Don't Know How She Does It starring Jessica Parker also highlighted that women always think about a lot of stuff before they go to bed.

Well, currently, my head is so messed up that these two scenes popped up in my head. I started the day this morning by being stucked in the jam before exiting to Kajang Silk and near Kampung Malaysia Raya all the way to TUDM. The jam was worse than usual... the usual would be a little more than an hour, this morning was about 2 hours. That was the first thing that contributed to my headache and stress today.

Current worries stuff swimming in my head:

1) Work - updated funding table, special ops list, hedge accounting treatment, dig in old things I haven't settled

2) Home - wash clothes, fold washed clothes, mop floor?, cook, file paid bills, hang clothes to send to laundry for ironing

3) Bills - wait for credit card statement to be updated, check whether astro/maxis/unifi bills standing instruction got rejected when my credit card limit maxed up, remind hubby to pay maid's salary, asked money from hubby to pay his PTPTN loan

4) Study - why am I still at Reading 2. March is already ending!

5)  Travel - what time are we starting our journey on Saturday? Why these people haven't decided what time to move? Where are we staying? Should I book first to get best rate? Maybe should just walk-in. 

6) Grocery list - Tricia's milk, catfood, dynamo, pillow?, picture frame. 

I am just very very lucky that hubby helped out with taking care of our baby Tricia. Gives me more room to worry about running the household and other stuff.

Bills, Bills, Bills

Hi all, 6 minutes until my lunch hour ends. Was sooo hyped up to go to the gym during lunch time this morning but it was again CANCELLED. Blerghhh. It was my decision though. Work has eased up a bit so I had to catch up with my BILLS. My credit card limit maxed up when I bought our ticket to London and all bill payments had to stop. Haha. Today mom's cheque cleared so I just had to clear the bills out of my way. Let's list down what I did during lunch time today:

1) Called MAS to transfer abg's Enrich Miles to my account to buy his return flight ticket

2) Was told I need an authorisation letter to do that so emailed abang authorisation letter

3) Redeemed my credit card points to convert to Enrich Miles

4) Paid my Bangi and Kajang's house quit rent

5) Paid Bangi's electricity bill
6) Login to TNB's website and paid mom's electricity bill

7) Paid my Bangi's Indah Water bill

8) Called Indah Water to get mom's outstanding balance and paid her bill

9) Registered and login to Syabas website to get mom's bill and paid that bill

Productive huh? All from the convenience of my office desk.

More new stuff

Hola people. The weekend is FINALLY here! What was supposed to be a relaxing week at work with all the monthly PnL stuff done, turned to be a super hectic week doing a special project. We even had to go back nearly 12am Wednesday night but the super exciting thing about it was: The big boss now knows my name! LOL. Yeah, it is a big thing to me, considering I wasn't officially acknowledged when I transferred in and after nearly a year joining the new team, it is nice to be finally recognised.

Last weekend was about catching up with family and friends. Saturday went to Dina's baby aqiqah. Sunday met my dad in the morning and went to hubby's schoolmate's open house. Hubby bought a new blackberry, Z10 by trading-in his HTC oneX and decided he didn't like it. So he went and traded that Z10 with a Samsung... was it Note 2? I'm not too sure. Had to take in a RM350 depreciation loss for using it for about 3 days.

As for me, I redeemed my credit card points for another DVD player so that both TVs have their own DVD player. The first one was redeemed too. I like free stuff. =p Decided to redeem it before hubby can say he wants to buy a new one. Haha. I was right. Right after I told him I redeemed my points, he said he WANTED to buy a blue-ray DVD player for his TV. Too late babe. Too late. =p And then, I also decided to buy a cheap AUTO washing machine since the one I had was semi-auto. Been complaining too much about the amount of washing I have to do to friends that they pushed me to buy a new one. Surveyed at one electrical shop, the lightest load around 6-7.5KG price were around RM750. Went to Seng Heng and found a Panasonic 6.5KG load for RM699 and extra RM100 discount for members. COOLNESS!

Matta fair is currently going on. Malaysia Airline also has their own promotion in March in conjunction with the Matta fair. So we bought our flights to London for abg's graduation in July. We don't quite look forward to it because it will be in fasting month. And the fasting time would be around 2.30am to 9.30pm! For Malaysians like us, that is seriously long. Hopefully it won't be too taxing on us and we can have fun and function normally. Bought Tricia a child seat although she is still entitled to infant ticket because we don't think we can handle holding her for 13 hours straight. Damaged done RM3.6K+ for adult and RM3.1K+ for Tricia... covered by dearest TokMama.

Oh yes, I just want to add: A tired mama is a useless mama. Last Sunday, after all the visiting and the shopping, I was trying to clean the house a bit but I was SUPER drained. Hubby was sleeping and Tricia was her usual active self. I was compiling hubby's work papers in a file and Tricia was circling me trying to take a cup of water by my side. I couldn't do it on the table or she would start to ask me to pick her up. So I did it on the floor. First, she fell down on the file and had two small cuts on her legs from the steel. Second, she managed to kick my cup and spill all the water in it. I was TOO tired to get up and mop the floor although I KNEW she would fall down if she slips. True enough she did and all I did was look. I couldn't even bring myself to pick her up and comfort her. Slowly I woke her papa up so that I could take my turn to rest... but only after I changed her wet clothes from the fall and then hug her to sleep with me. Woke up an hour later to a big portion of fried rice, prepared by dearest hubby.