Showing posts with label diary. Show all posts
Showing posts with label diary. Show all posts

Friday, August 20, 2010

I Have A Lot of Growing Up To Do

If I think staying home on weekends cleaning the house + do laundry and waking up in the wee hours in the morning to prepare sahur is enough to fulfill my duty as a wife, I am clearly living in my own dream world. This entry is a follow up on yesterday's PMS = sulking entry. Last night I threw a tantrum in front of my husband. Here's the story.
Hubby has been busy for about 2 weeks now. He has been coming back very late and very tired. On top of that, it is fasting month AND he had food poisoning where he was experiencing diarrhea and stomach ache, resulting in him to frequent the toilet more often than usual. CLEARLY, he was very very tired. But this sweet loving husband of mine still insisted to come home to me every night although it is wayyy past mid-night and even when his family members (worried about his lack of sleep) try to persuade him to just stay over in Nilai and offered to send him home for sahur. That is notably very sweet of him.
In a parallel world, I have been wanting to watch Inception, Salt and The Sorcerer's Apprentice with him since the movies were launched but we were either too tired or too busy to catch any screening at the nearest cinema. Yesterday, while browsing through the screening time, I realised that Inception will soon be phased out from the cinema so I told hubby about it and he said he'll try to rush back and see if we can catch it.
He arrived home ard 10-ish and called me out. I went into his car and wonder where we were going. He said "I thought you wanted to watch Inception". I replied "Oh, this late? Next show is 11.45pm in Mid-Valley..." Thinking I have to wake up around 4.45am to prepare sahur, and the movie would probably end around 3am, I was not really up for it. But I am not fasting (as I am currently having my period) I could probably just take coffee to last me through the day. However, when I look at him, he was yawning constantly and looked very very tired. So I said, lets go buy DVD instead. He asked me thousands of times whether I am sure with my decision coz obviously the DVD won't be of good quality. All I know is I want to watch Inception and since he is home with me now, and came back just to spend time with me, might as well. So we went ahead and the drama begins.
I opened the lock to my house. There was a sliding door right after the grill but I went ahead and bang my whole body against it. Of course, it is funny but it was also painful. Hubby was laughing at me and I was waiting for him to rub the pain away. But he was taking his time. Open his car's door, one after another, Open it again, Check the boot... Still not done. What the hell was he looking for? So I yelled, "Cepat laaaa... sakit nih" and he was still laughing and said "Itu laa dulu gelakkan org".
Guess what I did. In pain and so mad that he was laughing at me instead of soothing me, I threw the lock on the ground!!! Hubby, with all the stuff in his hand, was not happy I did that and complained, "Jangan la macam nih. Baik tak payah balik awal." Urghhh... Benci. Mmg takyah balik awal kalau nak irritate orang. I stormed inside and waited in front of the front door. He didn't come in. After rubbing the pain away myself, I went back outside to check on him. Apparently, he dropped all his stuff on the ground too, head down on his new Triton. So I picked up his stuff, picked up the lock and the house key, tried to pushed him in but he would't budge. So I just went inside.
I went straight to the kitchen, washed my dirty dishes while crying and went straight to bed. Not in the mood to watch movie... All the while, he was smoking, sitting comfortably on the back of his new triton. Only after he had gain enough strength to deal with me, he came up and comforted me and asked me to watch movie with him downstairs. Melted that he at least still try to make that effort, I went for it, but after just 10 mins, he fell asleep on the couch beside me. Feeling sleepy myself, I woke him up and dragged him upstairs. Back to normality...

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Humbling Day

Dear diary,
Today was a humbling day... I feel like everything I did/said turned out wrong.
1) On some racial issue, found that I mis-quoted a friend and later turned out into this big debate over what was being said.... Lucky they have get used to me so the issue can be disregarded rather quickly.
2) Work - was confused on some issue and instead of going to my superior, I went straight to the client, where my superior pointed out reflects poor coordination in the team. =_=
3) Work - had to revise rate quoted to a client coz when I asked the dealer, she didn't answer so I asked the client what was the last rate quoted instead. And the rate sounds consistent with our board rate so I agreed to it. Turns out, they should get higher rate and the client was of couse, unhappy and her superior called back.
4) Feel bad for not staying over at my mom's place yesterday when she asked me to do so. The guilt drags on...
5) Coughing profusely. Should have taken Doctor's offer for MC today but refused based on the amount of work I currently have, which I now regret.
I hope it stops there. A bit too much for me to handle this especially in my current coughing condition.

Regards,
Farah

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,
It's raining outside and I don't feel like going home yet as I'm sure the traffic will be congested. Plus hubby is still not done for the day. I would just like to record a VERY cheesy story so if you think you'll get sick of it, please stop reading. This morning I woke hubby up before I left for work since he wanted to leave early. Normally I would only give him a wake up call when I reached office. He was sitting on the bed, still half asleep when I hugged him from behind and asked, "sape yg comel sgt nih?". He then answered, "baby". I know I always call him baby though I don't think he approves it so it is a surprise to me when he admits that he is a baby, MY baby. Hehe... SAYANG SGT. Okay. YOU who are determined enough to read this entry even though I changed the font colour to black, please leave a comment. Let's have a headcount of those who actually managed to read this. LOL.
Love,
Farah

Sunday, December 28, 2008

A state of happiness

I don't want to talk about this coz this is very personal but I want to pen this down somewhere as a record, as a memory... so here I am writing in my "diary".

Dear Diary,
At this point of time in my life, I am feeling so damn happy and lucky to be dating this ReALLy rEallY GREAT guy. And God's willing, we are soon gonna be engaged and hopefully making it official on paper to build our life together by the end of next year. I am SoOoO happy and EsTaTiC that he has been SO SO SWEET lately, that sometimes it makes me feel guilty thinking that I might probably not making him feel the same way. Sometimes I am also scared that I might screw this up because to me, now, this is just perfect. I don't want to spoil this in any way, like what happened to some of my friends, intentionally and especially accidentally. I am confident that I would not intentionally hurt him in AnY way but I hope the latter won't Ev3R take place. Like any typical girl, I pray that he won't hurt me and break my heart as is typically seen in real lives and movies. But I also hope he is not reading this because I don't want him to be scared or knows that I am scared or thinks that I am so clingy and change his mind. (Though I think he would one day come across this and if he actually/when he eventually does, I hope this article wouldn't change a bit of what it is today). Of course, there will be some ups and downs, but I hope we will get through anything together and stay strong forever.
I just finished watching "Definitely, Maybe", a story about a father, who is heading for a divorce, relating his love stories to his young daughter. When he said "The happy ending is I have you", I started crying. (Yes, I am always a bit soapy when it comes to this). Then it got me thinking... I have been crying almost half of my childhood, wishing everything would be better one day and now... it is... FiNaLLy it is... and I really really hope it would last... FoREv3R. To you, Mohd Hazmi Abdul Halim, though I am wishing you would not find this, if you do, please remember that you are the love of my life, my very one and only. And I can only thank God for sending you right to me. I love you with all my heart! Thank you~
xoxo,
me