2 more days to go home & Bday Wish List

My last 3 papers (for 2 subjects; POF & OR) were really bad. I REALLY hope to at least get a second for POF and at least a 3rd (a mere pass) for OR. Surprisingly, the paper I thought was going to help my grades turned out to be the worst, which is the OR. *sigh* I've tried so hard but it is still not enough. Will have to work not only harder next year, but also better or more effectively. I guess that closes the door of opportunity to work here after graduation. (Maybe I can still try but the chances are super slim.) Just not my luck then. But I would say I am quite satisfied with my improvement (in attitude towards studying). I know I could improve M0R3 but this is all I could do as a change from last year. Yes, Will still try harder next year.

I am of course sad that I did not do very well (as I hope I would) in this exam. But I am more sad to think that I might have shattered Hazmi's dream and his hope of me. "I am really really sorry, honey." I feel more guilty to him than to myself. But I don't know now what the results will turn out to be. I hope everything is good enough. All I can do now is to pray and just leave it to God. I have no control over it anymore. For now, "I just can't wait to get back home." Quoted from Michael Buble's 'Home'. Went shopping yesterday and today & I'm really tired at the moment. But while window-shopping-ing just now, I came across things I want but don't really need. Ngehehe. In case someone is sweet enough to gimme a bday present but don't have any idea what to buy, this is a short list. (Not that I'm expecting them. Ingat pun dah sweet. Card je pun dah sgt sweet. Tak ingat pun takpe kot. Coz I, myself, sometimes couldn't get to wish everyone especially during the peak busy time.) But since each time I go bday present hunting, I always have problems on deciding what to buy, Most of the time wishing I have telepathy powers and secretly figure out what they want, I always thought it would be easier if there is a list I could chose from. (In the end, I always end up buying things I like instead of things the person might like. Sorry guys. I don't have a clue) :

• Sudoku machine (sort-of the play-as-you-go thingy) - Hanijoe bought this for me already =). Thanxxx
• A magic 8 ball
• A lava lamp
• An extended wind-chime... like the long ones in Covent Garden
• Or just a suncatcher
• The silky-like bead-filled-pillow
• Or if you dun like all this ideas, a book, chic lit, maybe. not heavy reading unless fantasy or sci-fi
• Jewelleries? Hmm, I like white gold at the moment so silver bracelet or necklace.
  
  Hahaha, cam beria plak list. Mahal plak tu kan. But no worries. I am actually fulfilling my own wish by doing this. A wish list so that ppl know what's on my mind. But of course you can still buy anything else if you want or not buy at all. I don't mind... Time to sleep. Good night!

2 down, 3 more to go

3 more papers and I'll be freeeeee... Urgh, I can't take this anymore. It's like sucking the life out of me. haha. just kidding. Well, I AM sick of studying and I feel like I've been doing this forever. And I'm not even half as nerd as my housemates. (hmm...) But I've put in MY best effort so everything is up to Him now. If God's willing I manage to achieve an average of 2:1 or above, of course I thank God for everything, Hazmi for constantly pushing me and supporting me, Mummy for always being there for me, but I would like to give the credit to my nerdy housemates, who helped me achieve my new-academic-year resolution of being a nerd. By creating the nerd-mode aura in the house, like it or not, I'll have to join them. And sometimes, I don't have the mood to study anymore but all I can only hear is silence so I know they are studying (or I THINK they are studying... hehe). Hence, I hafta study too. (right...) And they are always there for me whenever I have problems, academically or mentally. (I am not that "mental" this year and Hazmi has increased his patience capacity so I think I'm quite ok) So... Dina, Aida & Mimi... Thank you, guys. We'll continue this nerdy mode next year, eyh? haha. Mcm laa dah habis exam kan. But if I only manage to get an average of 2:2 or below (I pray not), then it is just not my luck. Or should I say I face a decreasing returns to scale of output. An increase in input of 150% only increases output of 100%. Owh wait, no increase in output...? Urghh, whatever.

Anyway, I sooooo wanna eat malaysian food right now. I want good foooooddd. One more week. One more week and I'll be back home. One more week and I'll be in food haven. ngahaha. (which then follows, I'll put on weight, dramatically) But who cares? ;) (Owh, I care...) Well, whatever... 3 more papers to go, peeps...

Exam, Exam, Exam

My Timetable:

AC211: Managerial Accounting - 15 May 2006: 10am Room D302
EC201: Microeconomics 1: - 22 May 2006: 2.30pm Room D1
OR202 Computer Exam: 24 May 2006: 10am Comp Lab C120
AC212: Principles of Finance - 25 May 2006: 10am D202
OR202 Written Exam: 26 May 2006: 10am Room D1

Hazmi's Timetable:

BEL1012: Electronic Commerce - 15 May 2006: 2.30pm Old Library (Main)
BST1022: Statistics for managers - 18 May 2006: 2.30pm ACR1002
BAC1014: Financial Accounting 1 - 19 May 2006: 9am CITS Lab 1
BMB3074: Manufacturing Business Management - 22 May 2006: 2.30pm ACR1001
BRB2054: Retail Business Management - 24 May 2006: 2.30pm ACR1002
BBM2044: Service Business Management - 25 May 2006: 2.30pm FBLR006A

Nickelback - Far Away

Artist : Nickelback
Song : Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming
You'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all, I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Hold on to me and, never let me go

When I finish my studies here, I'll dedicate this song to hubby and mean every single word. The last part is not suitable yet coz I still have one more year to go after this 2nd year exam. So... for the time being, I have to struggle to complete my degree first.
Haven't been studying this hard since SPM. Hope the hard work pays. Sometimes I think I am on track, but when I take a look at something, it'll be like "shoot, there's a LOT more I haven't read". It's a loop thing... keeps going on and on like that. Like the feeling of 'urgh-exam-is-very-near-feeling' and 'Yea!-I'm-going-back-this-month'. The good thing about this loop feeling is that it's keeping me in balance and sane.