It's not about the money, money, money...

Well, I guess most of time, it IS about the money, Jesse James. I kinda feel a bit cheesed off when people only get connected with you to ask for money. I saw it happened to my mom, to my hubby even but lately it has been happening directly at me. For instance, a friend whom I have not contacted since primary school, found me on FB, was friendly for a few weeks then ask to borrow money from me. When I said no, I never heard from him again. I guess I always wanted to be a nice person, making people assume that I would always help those in need but truth is, I am very calculative especially when I don't trust you. Very few people make it into my trustworthy list. So I advice you not to test it or you might be disappointed.

Another fact that you have to know about me is that I am a cashless person. I barely have/carry cash around. Most of the time I only have about RM10 in my wallet, enough for a day's lunch. If I have more than that, most probably I will spend it on food/parking/misc expenses. Big expenses I will just charge to my credit card where at the end of the month will be settled immediately after I receive my salary. And EVERY single month, after I paid off my credit card, I am usually left with nothing. It might not be a good cash management style for you but it works for me. I track my expenses very closely and I settled all my commitments on time so far. Alhamdulillah. I do have a little money aside for my rainy days but I assure you it's not a lot. Most nights I will rely on my mom or my hubby for my dinner so stop assuming I'm some rich young bitch with a lot of excess cash.

Just on a side note, hubby and I are eye-ing a property in Nilai for investment purpose. We have paid the booking fee and waiting for S&P to be drawn. No, it does NOT mean we have a lot of cash to be invested. We leverage on bank loans for investments i.e. we take up loan and expect rental income to pay off the monthly payment and maintenance fee. Which only means I have a LOT of debts lined up behind me. I'd rather settle all my debts first before I start giving money to anyone.

3rd and 4th check up

3rd check up was a success. It fell on my mom's birthday. Hubby and I arrived around 7.05am and managed to get number 7 from reception and was 4th in line for Dr Siti. Yeay! Had early breakfast where I had coconut water, which made me frequent the toilet like every 10 minutes. The baby was downward-facing that time and when asked whether we could know the gender already, Dr said it's too early for that =( Anyway, Dr Siti put the radio on so that we could hear the baby's heartbeat. Hehe. Hi baby. Funny thing after the check-up though, I rushed to the toilet immediately. Only after I was done was I told that my blood test came with urine test. =_= By that time, after 5 toilet trips, my bladder was, as you can guess, empty. Hubby had to go downstairs and bought mineral water for me before I could successfully filled my cup. LOL.

16 weeks

After a successful race for our 3rd check up, we were late for our 4th one. Thanks to Ahmad, hubby's friend, who managed to keep us up outside from 12-4am the night before, by telling us his tales of a broken engagement. Arrived slightly after 7.30am, got number 30+ which we thought was not too bad but only to be told that we were no 19 on queue to see Dr Siti. Sigh. Lucky none of us was in a rush so we just hang out, had breakfast, visited Cyan, who was admitted there at the time and came back for the check up just ard 12pm. Just after mummy had a short conversation with Dr Siti, she was called to the labour room pulak! Haish. Byk betul dugaan. When she came back about half an hour later, she informed us that the blood/urine test was good. Baby has a low chance of down-syndrome, which is a good news, hopefully... amin. And then the Dr asked, "Do you want to know the gender?". I immediately shouted, YES!

Mind you, both of us were very sleepy that day since we didn't have enough sleep. All this while I was so damn confident it is going to be a boy. So you can imagine when the Dr announced that "It's a girl", we were both very shocked and very HAPPY! Not that we won't be happy if it is a boy. Just a little more excited to have a girl. That's all... =p Hehe. I asked the Dr whether she was sure it's a girl or she just made that deduction since she couldn't see a boy's balls. She taught me to see the private part. In her word, "when you see 3 lines, like a hamburger, then it's a girl" So here's her picture on her 20 weeks check up. Too big to fit into one ultrasound picture already. Can't wait to meet you, sweetheart. ^_^

20 weeks

Thankful for my pregnancy

I just got back from an amazing vacation in Redang. It was just ah-ma-zing! Not only I have my girls with me, I also brought along my whole family; hubby, mummy and abang. But that's not what I wanted to write in this post. Maybe the next one if I'm in the mood for it.

Since I am done with my exam (though I did very very badly), I am now in the mood to do some light reading. Currently reading "I do, Now What" by Giuliana and Bill Rancic. Reading about how tough it is for them to conceive a baby was really moving. It was a real struggle but it is such a beautiful partnership they have together, very supportive of each other and a very loving couple.

This morning though, while I was driving to work, I turned on to FlyFM as I usually do. Today's Fix-It was a request from a wife. She has been married to her husband for 6 years. They have been trying unsuccessfully to conceive and it frustrates both of them to the core. But what is different in their story compared to G&B's is that the husband went to have a one-night stand and made THAT other woman pregnant. I can only imagine what the wife is going through right now. Although the husband "tried" to stick with the wife, when given the ultimatum between the wife and the baby, the hubby chose the baby. So sad. Sobs... He kept on repeating what he did was definitely wrong but he got a baby out of it and he didn't regret that. He didn't sound guilty a bit. Life is so sad.

Anyway, now I understand a bit more how straining the struggle to have a baby can be on a relationship. As unexpected as it was, I must be Very Very VERY thankful that Allah decided to blessed us with this pregnancy. I pray everything will go well and smoothly, insyaAllah. Amin...